Bones are Beautiful

I have gained 10 POUNDS since coming to college.



That's only 5 AWAY from the Freshman fifteen.



And there is no way in HELL I am settling for that.



Say what you want to, because honestly I don't give a fuck about what you think is right or wrong about my reasoning or how I've decided to treat my body. Screw that.



Starting tomorrow (actually today) It's meal plans, scheduled eating times, scheduled exercise times, restricted portion sizes, restrictions on food type. It's going DOWN.


Height: 5'3

Current Weight: 121 pounds
HW:121
LW:111
Goal Weight: 105 pounds


although maybe eventually 100.


FUCK being fat man.

So I forgot to post my cal intake yesterday, but it came to about 600..

Today I woke up late and missed breakfast and lunch so around lunch time i had like two fruit bars and some wheat thins...bringing my total to about 390 cals for today....i skipped dinner because the dining hall is mad crowded...which is probably a good thing because i can avoid temptation.

Ok so I know I've been very absent from my thinspiring livejournal community, but as college is upon me, and with it all the awful food, I will need to keep on track more than ever. So I'm back to thinspire with the best of them! Wish me luck girlies, and of course I shall do the same

Ok so I occasionally go to Old Navy (or others) and try on clothes just for fun...even though I always buy clothes a little big for me so it doesnt matter...


well this week I went with my boyfriend and tried on a size 0


and I FIT!!!!!



I almost cried I was so happy.....I mean they were a little tight on my hipss...but that can be worked on....



Now im like pumped full of thinspiration and ready to tackle lose five more pounds....no matter what it takes!

so i took a temporary hiatus
because my mom was into this like whoe "simple life" deal...
which was totally gay....

but the important thing is im back online.....wusha....
now if only i can lose some weight

Ok so...


Im having an impossible time with my dieting. One of my friends seems to think i should eat like a horse like him, exept when he does it he's fine because he's like 6'3. And I really don't know what to do because ive got to be able to keep the weight off...


I'm no where near my goal of 100....ive got like 15 pounds to lose...and the whole thing is really frustrating because..i dunno....but it is.


Not to mention said friend almost caught me purging...snif


On another note...I really am sick of school...and trying...It's last quarter, and it doesnt really matter. And summer is a comin'.


Ugh. I need to go take a hot shower. My muscles are screaming. It's all for the skinny....just gotta keep tellin myself that...

So my boys are home from Europe and I'm decidedly happier. Nothing like some of your best friends arriving a day early to set you in good spirits.

On a sadder note, my binging is no longer few and far between. What with all these people being re-integrated into my life, I'm having a bit of a problem with the whole, "low-profile" issue.


Pro-ana though, definitely still pro ana, always and forever.


Quod me nutrit me destruit right?

School starts back up in less than 24 hours >.< but i guess getting back into schedule might help with the control issue.


By the way has anyone noticed how much it feels like summer? The winds of change, and warm weather, are blowing our way. I personally cannot wait! To move mostly, and get out of this stink hole. The weathers also put me in a driving mood. I'll have that blasted license before I know it. No rush though.


Peace and Love

Bad today, ran to school for something, one full set exercises, total of like 700 cal? >.<


currently 115

So to make one thing clear: this journal will be real. However gruesome "real" me may be is another question. No stupid "i love him but he loves her!" crap. I pride myself on being at least somewhat down to earth.

With that said, and at the risk of sounding fake, I completely and utterly miss my friends, who all happen to be gone at the moment. It also happens to be spring break. Double suck. The kicker is I left my bike at my friends house so no mountain biking neither. >.<

I believe there is, of course, some necessary explaining to do. My friends are my life. And seeing as I've found most "friends" of the female persuasion to be shallow, vapid, and vindictive, I also tend to hang with all guys. It's like one big happy brotherhood. And me. And Shakhed. Shakhed being my lone female friend who, I believe, is grounded, at least as I define the word.

Ok so technically not ALL my friends are gone. Just the ones I have easiest access to and am closest to. Even the waubeekans are gone, mostly at least.


With that said, I've utilized the break to try and lose a little extra weight. Easier said than done eh? Yea. Definitely. And let's just say my self control isn't exactly amazing. It's been difficult.

Perseverance is the key I guess...